Dog-Eat-Dog Was a Lie

You’ve heard the phrase: “It’s a dog-eat-dog world.” People say it to normalize cruelty, to justify competition over compassion, but that line was twisted from the beginning.

The original Latin—Canis caninam non est—means:
“A dog does not eat the flesh of another dog.”

Even nature knew better. Even dogs, in their rawest instinct, don’t turn on their own. So why did humans distort that phrase into something brutal? This spoken word poem is a reclamation—a better metaphor for a better world. If we stopped rewarding domination and started listening to the rhythms of nature, the wisdom of balance, the truth of kindness, we might begin to build something different. The future doesn’t have to be a fight. It can be a dog-playing-with-other-dogs kind of world.

Dog-Eat-Dog Was a Lie
Let’s Build a Dog-Playing-With-Other-Dogs Kind of World

Imagine for a moment
if a “dog-eat-dog world”
might be outdated
and in need of a rebrand.

The dogs I know are pampered pooches,
dearly-loved fur-babies
eating human-grade food
and sleeping beside their humans
like high-level telepathic therapists—
mini-angels loving us, despite our inadequacies.

They don’t process us
like the machine does.
They don’t ask, “How can you be more productive?”

They remind us how to sit on a porch and do nothing—
how to let the trees and the birds calling out
remind us that even cities
are built on sacred lands.

The ghost of a wolf
might run full speed
through a busy intersection
if you open your eyes—
and stop calling visions crazy.

Call it trans-temporal vision—
the soul-oracle’s gift,
the sight of a clairvoyant beyond time.

All of time exists
right now, anyway.
So, if you heal the well of grief and pain right now…
could you heal all of time?

Can even one of us do it—
create peace inside ourselves?

Forgive everyone—
ourselves included—
from here to eternity and back?

To the moon,
around the stars.
and through a million galaxies?

Forgive like tornadoes,
tsunamis,
volcanoes?

Forget like floods,
like fire,
like sinkholes swallowing old unsolved crimes,
like avalanches erasing names?

Forgive like we are
the most powerful gods
we can imagine?
And the most loving?
Breathing a new way of being
into everyone!

And if we’re redesigning the world—
this time, you, as God,
could tell every man, woman, and child of all races
and nations that they are equally divine.

Tell everyone,
You are human,
spiritual,
and sacred
.

Respect and boundaries—
are the new golden rules.

Every soul journey
deserves reverence.
But every soul must respect
the space of another… and do no harm.

This time, we know how to heal
mental illness and physical illness—
or at least love people
through the experience.

This time, we celebrate quiet kindness,
acts of service,
and wild joy that needs no reason.

We send love to the collective.
We insist on truth.
On abundance for all.
On liberty. On the experience of oneness.
On unshakable integrity.

Imagine, like John Lennon,
a world with no abuse.
No neglect.
No rape.
No torture.
No trafficking.

All that cruelty?
Banished. Over.
Kicked to the curb
by the evolution of love.

The human race is well-fed.
Everyone has a porch where they sit
and watch the sunrise, again and again
until merging with it peacefully
when their consciousness slips out of their bodies.

Even the stray dogs
aren’t on the streets eating each other.
They’re looking for scraps.
For kindness.

Even in forced fights,
dogs don’t eat each other.

That metaphor?
It is a horrible descriptor,
and it’s time we replace it.

Let’s turn the human race
into a race pointed in the direction
of greater evolution—
creativity, beauty, safety, peace, and prosperity.

A race rooted in harmony.
In wonder.
In beauty.

A dog-playing-with-other-dogs
kind of world.

Let every pup
and every person
have clean water.
Shelter.
A community that holds space for them.

Let us remember—
that we are all one.
That even “dog-eat-dog” was a lie.

The phrase came from Latin:
Canis caninam non est
a dog does not eat
the flesh of another dog.

Nature isn’t cruel.
It’s precise.
An ecosystem without shame,
without blame,
without manipulation.

Let’s return
to the roots of kinship,
connection, honor,
and respect for both living and dying.

The Mysterious Experience of Dying, Healing, and Awakening

Here are some YouTube Shorts which link to the longer interviews. I love how near-death experiencers discuss the moments they realized they were physically dead but their consciousness continued. They express these moments with awe, humor, wonder, and a reverence for the mysterious nature of dying.

Donna Rebadow is a Mystic, Near-Death Experiencer, former Professor, Sports Medicine Acupuncturist, and host of the “Exploring Consciousness” Podcast. In the summer of 1998, Donna had a Near Death Experience that changed how she viewed herself, the world, and other dimensions. After this experience, Donna started exploring consciousness. Donna taught at the college level in Arizona for 30 years in the areas of Health, Wellness, Psychology, and Alternative Medicine. She opened her own Sports Medicine Acupuncture practice in 2010, which included treating Major League Baseball players, and elite and Olympic athletes. Donna is a humanitarian, musician, former professional athlete, and consciousness adventurer and was inducted into the Naismith Basketball Hall of Fame with her Wayland Baptist University teammates. https://exploreconsciousness.libsyn.com/

Tommy McDowell had a life-altering near-death experience (NDE) during a prolonged coma. As his body failed, he entered the void—a realm of darkness and silence where he faced profound fear and isolation. But in his moment of deepest despair, a presence emerged—pure Goodness, infinite love, and overwhelming peace. A seasoned executive leader in the tech industry, U.S. Army veteran, Tommy’s experience shattered his worldview and revealed a divine presence beyond anything he had ever imagined. Join us as Tommy shares his incredible story. If you want to contact him, here is his email address. tommyleemcdowell@icloud.com

Mike Dinkel is a near-death experiencer (NDEr) and a gifted healer, channel, and psychic. In this interview, we discussed his near-death experience (NDE) and the profound spiritual insights he gained from his near-death experience as a very young child. Mike shares his incredible journey and how it led him to develop a unique approach to healing, energy work, and intuitive guidance. At the end of our conversation, Mike channels wisdom for all of us, offering a transformative message filled with healing and higher consciousness. His work includes CranioSacral Therapy, Reiki, SomatoEmotional Release, Hands-On Healing, Vocal Toning Therapy, and more—all designed to help both people and animals find deep healing. In the full episode, he also talks about some work as a rescue medium. In this experience, he worked with an earthbound soul who believed she would be punished for having an abortion. When we approach the topic of abortion with spiritual maturity, we move beyond punishment and into healing. God does not seek to trap souls in guilt but to uplift them in truth. No matter where you stand, let’s move away from shame and toward understanding. Let’s create space for compassion—for the living and for those who have passed. Because in the end, love is what sets us free. Learn more about Mike Dinkel and his healing work: 🌐 MikeDinkel.com 

Victoria Beaumont shared the profound impact of her spiritually transformative experiences. A life-changing event in her 20s opened her up to energetic connections with loved ones on the other side and unveiled spiritual gifts. As a successful singer and music producer, she blends pop with meditation music while researching consciousness and spirituality. Discover how these experiences have shaped both their lives, including insights into angelic encounters and mediumship abilities that continue to evolve over time. Victoria Beaumont recently moved back to the states from the U.K. where she continues her career as a successful singer and music producer, creating all kinds of music from pop to meditation music. She’s also a keen researcher of consciousness and spirituality in her spare time. Website – https://www.vbvocals.com Victoria’s New YouTube channel – https://www.youtube.com/@VoicesOfLightMusic

Alysa Rushton is a near-death survivor and energy intuitive. She is a global thought leader on conscious life creation and ascension. Founder of the Divine Light Energy Healers Academy, she teaches healing tools learned from her NDE. Alysa inspires individuals to overcome adversity, release addiction, and step into their true identity as Divine beings of light. Join us for an inspiring conversation as Alysa shares her powerful near-death experience and miraculous healing journey. Alysa opens up about the role of identity in healing and how we can consciously create our best lives. Prepare to be uplifted and empowered! Here is Alysa Rushton’s website: https://alysarushton.com/

Elizabeth Clark’s powerful book, Healing in the Himalayas, takes readers on a journey through the stunning landscapes of Nepal and the Himalayas, where a life-changing trek brought brought about a profound personal healing and spontaneous recovery from breast cancer. Along the way, she received spiritual guidance that helped her uncover and address the root of her illness: unresolved childhood trauma. With her expertise as a licensed music therapist and trauma-informed practitioner, Elizabeth’s story beautifully bridges the mind–body connection and the transformative power of healing. Tune in to the full conversation for an inspiring conversation about trauma, resilience, and the incredible potential for change within all of us. We also talk about how near-death experiences and spiritually transformative experiences have similarities and differences. Here is her website. http://www.elizabethclark.org

Heal Your Heart and Unlock Joy

Feeling trapped in survival mode, weighed down by pain, doubt, or grief? You’re not alone—and healing is always possible. I don’t think “one” way is the only way to healing because healing is a personal journey. However, my heart goes out to anyone who is suffering and wants more light and connection in their lives. I share what has worked for me personally.

This growing library of theta healing sessions are designed to help you release past traumas and reclaim your personal power. These are guided meditations and energy healing, so that you can more deeply relax and clear deep-rooted limitations caused by fear, neglect, sabotage, and abuse. Key areas of healing include self-worth and personal growth, clearing blocks to heightened abilities and healing.

Evolving does indeed help you experience greater joy and freedom because the wisdom from the heart and soul of you knows that love is all that you take with you when you go. Spending time offering yourself more mercy and healing is time that pays you and the world around you in dividends.

It pays you beyond the constraints of time and space, and it aligns you right here and right now.

There is no time for self-doubt and discouragement with your circumstances. It is time to connect to the light for your healing.

These recordings are compassionate reminders that we all in the process of becoming better and better versions of ourselves. No person is a product—we are worthy of our own love and the love of our creator, and the world around us. Click here to find out more!

Join Us: Live Healing Session with Ken Lloyd & An Inspiring Conversation with Ana Noyce

Here are two interviews with fascinating guests!

Stick around for a live healing session/meditation at the end with Ken Lloyd, a near-death experiencer and multi-dimensional healer. In this episode, he shares his incredible journey and the transformative healing work he offers. Ken’s profound NDE allowed him to integrate 22 soul aspects, enabling him to channel ascension codes and light language that catalyze spiritual growth and healing.

Known for his 580-foot healing field, Ken helps individuals release energetic blockages, activate higher consciousness, and align with their soul’s blueprint. Ken’s enhanced cellular structure allows him to hold and transmit transformative frequencies that unlock dormant DNA blueprints, clear dense energy programs, and empower clients to reach their full potential beyond human limitations. In this conversation, Ken shares his incredible journey, the higher frequencies he channels, and the profound impact his healing sessions have on people’s spiritual, emotional, and physical well-being. Be sure to check out his one-on-one sessions and his group events which you do receive recordings from if you can’t make it at the particular time.

Ana Noyce is the founder of Light Language University, a visionary institution dedicated to helping individuals unlock their multidimensional gifts and achieve balance between mind, body, and spirit. With a profound connection to the spiritual world, Ana is a Usui & Karuna Reiki Master Teacher, Shamanic practitioner, Akashic Records reader, Medical Intuitive, Blessing Giver, Channeler, Author, and accomplished public speaker. Drawing from esoteric knowledge and a life shaped by transformative experiences—including a profound spiritual awakening guided by Golden Light Beings—Ana has devoted her life to teaching others how to awaken to their highest potential.

Through Light Language University, she offers workshops, masterclasses, and clinical services designed to help people step into their personal power and heal on deep, multidimensional levels. Join us for this conversation as Ana shares her incredible journey and her mission to support the awakening of humanity. Here is a link to her website and courses.

Like Ken Lloyd and Ana Noyce, I am passionate about spreading awakening and healing. If you’re in need of extra self-care, I invite you to explore my healing downloads/meditations, specifically created to support those who have experienced abuse, neglect, or emotional challenges. These tools are designed to help you release pain, find balance, and reconnect with your inner light.

While traditional therapy and EMDR are incredibly powerful, energy healing offers immediate relief and deep transformation. Take advantage of these healing downloads now, as I continue to add new resources to support your journey. Invest in your healing today—you are so worth it!

I would also love to connect with you for a Theta healing session, medium reading, or intuitive reading. Please check out my calendar for available dates.

Many blessings and happy holidays!

Tricia Barker, MFA

Spiritual Community and Readings

Hello Beautiful Light-Filled Souls!

I’m thrilled to invite you to join our growing spiritual community, where we meet twice a month on Zoom for meaningful connection, healing, and spiritual growth. These gatherings are held on Wednesday evenings at 7:00 p.m. Central Time, and I truly believe that together, we create a space of light, support, and transformation.

Here are our upcoming meeting dates:

  • October 2024: October 9th & 23rd at 7 p.m. Central
  • November 2024: November 6th & 20th at 7 p.m. Central
  • December 2024: December 4th & 18th at 7 p.m. Central

✨ Special Offer: If you sign up for our spiritual community in September or October, you can purchase a reading for $100—a special discount of $50! This is a wonderful opportunity to dive deeper into your personal spiritual journey with guidance. Here is the link to book a reading.

You can also book a discounted reading if you purchase an archangel design t-shirt. I love the idea of people walking around the world wearing t-shirts of these angels. The image closest to the angels I saw during my surgery is this design.

If you can’t attend live on a particular night, don’t worry! I’m creating a library of downloadable healings and meditations that you can access anytime through our online portal. You’ll also have access to recordings from previous months in 2024, so you can benefit from the group energy whenever it’s convenient for you. Remember to use the same email to log in and access these resources.

You can join our community for as long as you like, and there’s no obligation—cancel anytime. I believe in making these healings accessible while maintaining the intimate and sacred nature of the work we do together, especially as we dive into deep, transformative shadow work.

I truly believe that in community, we can amplify our light, heal one another, and create positive change. I’d love for you to be part of this sacred journey with us.

Many blessings to you!


Tricia Barker

Interview with Daniel Giroux: Love, Joy, and Healing

Daniel Giroux’s near-death experience takeaway can be summed up in a few words—love, joy, and healing.  Of course, each near-death experience has far-reaching aftereffects and often changes the experiencer’s life dramatically.  I hope you enjoy his story and the discussion afterwards about energy work. Daniel is a friend of mine and a mentor.  I feel blessed to have met him on this journey.

I am especially excited to share this conversation with you because Daniel and I both meditated before we talked, and we made an intention that our discussion might be of benefit to others.  I asked him to give me a reading at the end of the video because I have recently lost a dear friend and wanted more closure.  We didn’t film the rest of that reading because Daniel picked up on a very sensitive time in my life when my friend was there for me.  I recalled the moment vividly, and it made me realize that in one of my darkest times I had an empathetic friend beside me who felt my pain on a deep level and loved me through that moment.  Jokingly, my friend (who is enjoying the afterlife and flying free) asked for a bigger part in my manuscript, and he deserves it. I guess I have one more scene to write in a book that I thought was completed.  It wasn’t complete without one more scene of unconditional love.  We can never have too much of that in this world.

Just before posting this video, I thanked Daniel’s guide, and she sent me someone incredibly special. I heard Louise Hay tell me, “You did very well.  This is what the world needs more of—healing.”   I felt shocked to hear Louise Hay’s familiar voice, and I feel like I am walking on air tonight.  May you each be blessed with love and joy!

Here is Daniel’s blog if you would like to contact him.

Harassment, Stalking, and Rape Almost Destroyed the Beauty of a Near-Death Experience But in the Long Run Spirit and Love Wins

Update 1/19/19:  My memoir, Angels in the OR: What Dying Taught Me About Healing, Survival, and Transformation, can be pre-ordered now.  It is a #1 new release in several categories.  I would love it if you helped me make near-death experiences more mainstream.

I’ve written about harassment, stalking, and rape before, but with everything in the news from the recent Time article about silence breakers, I wanted to address these topics again, and ultimately from the perspective of healing, both personally and socially.

I had a slightly different experience from some older near-death experiencers because I returned to the body of a woman in her early twenties.  Navigating this culture and another culture in South Korea proved challenging.

However, in the end, we are not defined by what we experience but by how we overcome these moments, how dedicated we are to focusing on creating a brighter future for ourselves despite the harrowing aftereffects, and how we are able to help other heal.  I also believe we all–male and female—have a responsibility to create safer power structures.

My healing came from group therapy, many types of therapies and healing modalities, many types of self-defense classes, community, helping others, energetic healing, meditation, yoga, writing, speaking about these topics, safe relationships, and time spent creating many beautiful, peaceful moments.

Ultimately, the near-death experience and the beauty of that event returned to me fully, but there were some dark years of living with some of the aftereffects of harassment, stalking and rape when I all I could do was survive.

I believe that love is a transformer of darkness in society.  I found a way to love all the many students I met who suffered in ways similar to me or in much more horrifying ways.  Supporting them in the ways I wanted to be supported made me feel as if I was working to create a better world.   In the end, isn’t that what we are trying to do on a soul level–create greater connection, greater understanding, and greater healing for everyone?

I reiterate time and time again that no victim is ever required to formally forgive, engage with, or talk with anyone who has harmed them, but it is also important to let go and focus one’s energy and time on goals, dreams, and beauty in the world.  Writing helps me let go of these moments even more.

It is no longer just my story.  As I am connected to countless stories from my students and may have worked to eliminate some of their sorrow, or at least pointed them in the direction of a brighter future, anyone who reads my story also helps me let go even more.  You lessen my burden.  You help me carry it, and set me a little freer.

I know our spirits long to fly.  Our spirits do not identify with this form–the PTSD or the pain.  We are the love that we give.

A Spiritual Perspective on Depression and Suicidal Idealization

Update on 1/19/19:  My memoir, Angels in the OR: What Dying Taught Me About Healing, Survival, and Transformation, can be pre-ordered now. It is a #1 new release in several categories.  I would love it if you helped me make near-death experiences more mainstream.  My memoir does reflect on my suicide attempt and how the love of the afterlife later showed me how to bring more love and healing into my life.  I want to share that healing with others.

A Spiritual Perspective on Depression and Suicidal Idealization

With the holidays coming up soon, I thought it might be important to talk about depression and suicide and offer my perspective.  I know that many people who have survived abuse, neglect, or trauma in their families are often ostracized by these family members.  Holidays become all the more of a painful reminder of how alone they might feel in the world.  Those who are awakening and realizing spiritual truths that may transcend the perspectives of their family members might also feel some disconnection.

Whatever your situation might be during the holidays, I hope that you might treat yourself with great love and compassion during this time of year and through out the rest of the year.

I have a unique perspective on suicide because I viewed my suicide attempt while in the afterlife.  At the end of college, I had a profound near-death experience after a car wreck and was clinically dead for over two minutes during emergency spinal surgery.

During my life review, I saw my suicide attempt (which occurred a few months prior to my near-death experience) through the loving gaze of God. God had enormous love and compassion for me during this sad time in my life.  I felt completely supported by this loving force of God, and I could hear some of God’s thoughts about that time in my life.

When God viewed my suicide attempt, I felt that God wanted me to love myself more and know that I am deeply loved and supported by the universe, even when it does not seem that way.  God wanted me to place a high priority on my health and healing.   There were a myriad of choices available to me besides making an attempt on my life. I saw all these choices spin out around me as various light-filled paths.  I could have contacted friends, acquaintances, certain family members, called a hotline, looked for free or affordable resources through my university, searched for help at churches, or joined a recovery group.  There were many options I had besides the one that I picked in that moment.

At twenty-one, I did not know how to walk through the painful parts of my life, but if I reached out to others, I might have made a choice other than swallowing a ridiculous amount of painkillers and washing these painkillers down with a decanter of whiskey.  Amazingly, I woke up 36 hours later and realized that I had vomited, which probably saved my life.

At twenty-one, I didn’t realize that I could’ve tried new things I had never tried before.  Help might not have come from the people I wanted it to come from, but help and healing was available to me, and it is available to you too.  If you are suffering from a deep depression, keep walking through the pain and know that you are not alone on this journey, no matter how alone you might feel at the moment.  Find connection somewhere.

Through my life review, I saw that God also wanted me to be kind to others and ask them more questions about their lives.  An obsessive focus on myself led to greater depression and sadness.  Getting out of myself and listening to others would have brought more joy to their lives and to mine.

Suicidal plans and thoughts should be taken seriously.  If you are very close to taking your life, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.  If you are not in the U.S., please look up a local or national hotline and talk with someone immediately.  Utilize all resources available to you, and reach out to someone you know who is a safe, caring person in your life.  If you are not suffering from depression but know someone who is, encourage this person to take healing, self-care, and therapy seriously.

If you suffer from depression but have energy to focus on your health and want to apply the deeply loving force of God to your own situation, I can offer you some ideas.  Every journey is an individual one, so please keep searching for what works for you.  These are only suggestions.

  1. Self-Love: Read everything you can get your hands on about self-love.  Louise Hay is a great resource with many mantras that might begin to change some of your negative thought patterns.  Ingest a daily diet of uplifting material—posts, podcasts, videos, and books.  I can personally recommend the book How to Love Yourself (And Sometimes Other People) by Lodro Rinzler and Meggan Watterson, especially if you struggle with romantic relationship difficulties.  Here is a blog post I have written about self-love.  Self-love is essential and necessary.  Too often we are much hard on ourselves when we could offer ourselves great compassion instead.
  2. Start a Healing Journey: Every healing journey is individual, but consider researching diets and supplements that can help your mood.  Reference books like Prescriptions for Natural Healing might be a place to begin.  Focus on simple healthy pleasures each day.  Exercise and get vitamin D.  Try new things.   Depending on your financial situation, invest in a therapist and try out various healing modalities.  Everything from eye movement desensitization and reprocessing (EMDR) which might help with PTSD to energetic healing modalities might offer you relief.   Addressing subconscious blocks through modalities like Psych K can be beneficial. Even if you do not have the funds for some of these modalities, you might be able to trade with certain practitioners if you have skills in a certain area.  You can learn specific yoga moves or Tai Chi exercises online that can improve your mood.  You might also be able to learn more about healing modalities and practices, and find comfort in the talks and free information from healers.  Start with therapy and work outward in the directions that you are led.
  3. Commit to a Spiritual Practice: Commit to a support group, recovery group, spiritual practice, church, or gathering that makes you feel connected to love.  Do not go somewhere or stay somewhere where you feel judged and bogged down by the negativity of others.  During my near-death experience, I clearly saw that love is all that matters.  Go somewhere where you feel love, optimism, joy, and release from your struggles.  I highly recommend a meditation practice, but like a healing journey, a spiritual journey is an individual one.  I can only emphasize the importance of commitment and practice.  A spiritual practice is beneficial when you commit to it over the long haul and through the many ups and downs of life.
  4. Volunteer: There is usually someone who is less fortunate than you.  Even if you are in a dire position in life, you can volunteer at an organization that already helps you.  While volunteering, you might meet others and listen to them with love and with hope.   The point of volunteering is to do something to make the lives of others easier or better in some way.  As you give what you can give, your troubles lessen and you feel connected to a greater whole.  Like exercise or any other activity that we know is good for us but we resist, volunteering can have a profound effect on our consciousness.  When we feel useful or helpful, our self-esteem and self-concept changes for the better.  Mostly, we simply find joy in being connected to others versus suffering in isolation.  We are communal and need one another.  Find safe people and form bonds.  If you are too anxiety ridden to volunteer somewhere, then find a way to connect with others and do not suffer alone.
  5. Feel the Love of God: Take time in your day to imagine the force of God that near-death experiencers talk about with longing and love.  Try to imagine the most loving force on earth.  What would that feel like to you?  Write down what you would like God to be like for you and what you would like to feel from God right now.  Take those positive feelings and multiply them by 70 million.  Believe in this love as a reality and not a concept.  Close your eyes and imagine what this love would feel like.  Bring this love into every single one of your cells.  Fill your body with a glowing light that is the purest form of love imaginable.  This is your birthright and your true essence.  Know it.  Share it.  Believe it.
  6. Gratitude can rewire your brain:  Keep a gratitude journey and write down what you are grateful for each day.   Watch this Ted Talk and try some of the other suggestions at the end for creating more happiness in your life.  Hopefully, this speaker makes you chuckle a bit.  Laughter is one of my favorite medicines.

Nine Days of Only Raw Fruits and Vegetables: Following the Advice of the Medical Medium–Anthony William

spinach soup

Update on 1/19/19:  My memoir, Angels in the OR: What Dying Taught Me About Healing, Survival, and Transformation, can be pre-ordered now. It is a #1 new release in several categories.  I would love it if you helped me make near-death experiences more mainstream.

Nine days of only raw fruits and vegetables, and only nineteen more days to go…  Who in their right mind would give up amazing foods like goat cheese, eggs, salmon, wild rice, and chocolate for twenty-eight days?

Answer:  Someone who is desperate to cut the pain of fibromyalgia and Hashimotos thyroiditis.  I’m following the medical medium’s plan for a twenty-eight day cleanse.  Anthony William describes autoimmune diseases and the causes differently from the way the medical profession describes them.  In fact, he flat-out says, the body IS NOT attacking itself.  The body is overloaded with bacteria, fungus, viral infections, heavy metals, and other toxicities.

I’ve heard theories like this before.  I’m well-read when it comes to herbal medicine, Chinese medicine, and alternative medicine, so nothing he says in the book shocked me.  I’ve already given up corn, gluten, soy, artificial flavorings, artificial sweeteners, alcohol, and cut back on caffeine.  With my own muscle testing, I didn’t react well to whey protein or iron supplements, so I didn’t take these two things.  I’ve tried a vegan diet.  I’ve tried a Paleo diet.  I’m open to experimenting with food as a cure.  When I recovered from surgery after my NDE, I ate at least 80% fruit and vegetables every day thanks to my mom’s interest in health.  She was reading books like Fit for Life and Diet for a New America among others.  I healed remarkably well and quickly during that time and realized that raw fruits and vegetables can be very healing.

I was only shocked that the cleanse Anthony William suggests lasts twenty-eight days. Throughout my life, I’ve done lots of three day cleanses, seven day cleanses, and even one nine day Master Cleanse.   After today, I’m journeying into uncharted territory as I start day ten.

The first day of any cleanse is the toughest.  After that, you don’t really feel that hungry, and you only miss cooked food when you smell it or see others eating it.  Today, I desperately missed the crunch of bean chips, but the moment passed and I felt fine.

With any cleanse, there are moments of fatigue, but I look at these moments as moments of healing for the body.  It takes a lot of effort to reverse damage, and the body needs rest in order to right itself.  I’m trying to feast and not starve, so I’m making awesome blended soups and smoothies.  Avocado dressing has been a godsend for salads.

Autoimmune Disorders:  The medical profession seems lost when it comes to fibromyalgia.  I’ve watched doctors shrug and say they can’t offer me much advice.  I’m not interested in taking an antidepressant, and most doctors who are honest say that Cymbalta will have side-effects and not help fibromyalgia as much as light exercise and diet.

My thyroid condition (Hashimotos thyroiditis) was overlooked for four years because my thyroid numbers appeared fine on the tests.  Five years ago, I sent an MRI of my neck area to two family physicians and one specialist.  None of the three doctors bothered to tell me that the technician noted that my thyroid was swollen.  Finally, a chiropractor looked at the CD and told me to get my numbers checked one more time.  I hadn’t struggled with weight issues or fatigue, but by the time I got in to see my doctor and get a blood test, my numbers were out of control.  The doctor’s office called frantically, afraid I might be in danger of a Myxedema Coma.  I’ve had a long journey trying to balance my thyroid.

I’m not bashing doctors.  I’ll be forever grateful to my surgeon and honest doctors I’ve met over the years who’ve told me about supplements they personally take or their wives take.  However, the “mystery illnesses” like autoimmune disorders, Lyme disease, depression, migraines, PTSD, PMS, and adrenal fatigue are not handled well by the medical profession.

I do recommend the book Medical Medium by Anthony William.  He covers all the mystery illnesses and offers some hope.  The section on how to heal is my favorite section of the book.  I like a detailed eating plan, so I’m following his plan.

I’ll let you know how I feel at the end of the twenty-eight days.  The celery juice in the morning seems to be helping with gut issues.  It was gross as heck the first morning, but today, I added a little cucumber and enjoyed it.  The recipe for blended spinach soup (featured in the picture) is actually pretty good–garlic, cilantro, tomatoes, spinach and spices.

I hope for much healing and health for everyone!

(Update….I made a video two years after this blog was posted to update you on my healing journey with hashimotos hypothyroidism.  Thank you for all of your questions.  May you be blessed and receive much healing.)

Your Destiny is to Heal, Serve, and Love Unconditionally

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You can have much greater happiness when you turn your attention and consciousness to the presence of God within you.

Believe in Your Divinity:  You are the divine spark.  You are blessed and more beautiful and expansive than you fully grasp.  Your power for good in this world is literally limitless because there is a part of you that is eternal, limitless, and timeless.

Sure, you feel small.  You feel barely heard or even unheard of from time to time, but you are large, and you bless the world wherever you travel, wherever you walk, and wherever you work.

Personally, I’ve grown tired of blocks to the Divine while living in this body and participating in the human experience, so I decided to do away with the blocks and live in a place of love as much of the time as I can handle.  My goal is to permanently reside there.

Of course, big goals leave a lot of room for failure, but I prefer big goals. Beethoven wanted to create music that transceneded time.  In a way, he did create music that transcends time, though I’m sure this particular goal made him work harder than he imagined possible.  I am sure there are days he felt like a failure despite all the beauty he created.

My concentration is on the Divine light inside of me, and my purpose of living is to remind you of your light and connection.  Too often, we turn on and off our connection, but it is better to leave the light turned on.  Never turn it out.

Control:  As humans, we can only control our body and our mind.  These two areas take a lot of discipline to master.  We cannot control much more than this, and it is amusing (and frustrating) to try to control others or to watch others try to control others.  Master what you can control–yourself.  There is joy and peace in this practice.

You turn your light out with a focus on all that you don’t have in the physical world. 

Be Grateful:  Out-picture and believe in what you want and rejoice in all that you have.  Show your gratitude to the world in small and large ways, and you will be rewarded.   Make a long list of even small things that you enjoy about life.

I am grateful to have lungs that work, strong legs that take me many places, new friends, old friends, and nearly perfect vision to see many beautiful parts of this world.

I am grateful for the kind people in my life.  I’m grateful for the diligence of my online students this summer session.  Even though I would prefer to meet them at least once, I hope they are enjoying their freedom as much as I am enjoying mine.  I hope they get to spend more time with their families and friends and enjoy more vacations.  I hope they get more rest since they don’t have to commute in order to be in class.

I am grateful simply to be alive.  I am lucky to be alive after all the near misses, the two guns pointed at me (one in a robbery at a place I worked for and one on the sidewalk in Austin).  I’m lucky to have survived the anger and aggression of certain men who seemed to want me dead in the moment. I’m lucky to have a soft bed to rest my head, three square meals a day, toothpaste that tastes good, tons of books, and a sense of rhythm on the dance floor.

Choose to Love Others:  I’m lucky that I’ve chosen to love many times throughout my life, and I wish I had loved more fully more often. Though many teachers talk about loving the self—loving others is brave, risky, and a worthy journey.  To send your love out like a letter without a return address, like a messenger pigeon in the middle of a war, like a surrender flag—this is beautiful.  I’m not talking about need and lust—people are eventually turned off when you want something from them.  Love is something you give and give freely without a return address.  No expectations.  Love someone, and they don’t have to love you back. Love for the sake of love, for the beauty of love, for loves ability to change the world.

I remember when I first learned to walk again after my surgery and near death experience.  I was a vibrant twenty–two year old woman, exquisitely happy to be alive.  My light was fully, almost explosively, turned on.   Sometimes street lights even popped off when I walked under them.  I blew out watches within days, weeks, or months of having them on my wrist.  Time was blessed and not something to be managed down to the minute. Connecting with others and enjoying each moment is what mattered.

I walked down city streets of Austin and smiled into the eyes of everyone I passed.  Many people were so angry, upset, and disgusted with their lives that they scowled back in return. They were often overworked, unhappy, and unfulfilled.  They focused on all the burdens and bad luck that seemed to have come their way.  They were angry at others instead of simply being happy to be alive.  Joy and passion seemed far from their reach. Some women felt their value in society had decreased as they aged, and they were envious of my youth or perceived attractiveness.  They scoffed at my smile.   I promised myself to be a different type of woman throughout my time on earth and decided to support all women no matter where they are in their journey or what physical form they jumped into for this merry-go-round trip around the sun.  Some men flirted with me when all I wanted to do was smile.  Some people were centered enough to receive my love and ecstatic, newborn-like joy as something worthy of a return smile.   Some people were sincerely curious why I was so happy and listened to my story with interest.   Some people felt that divinity brought me into their lives just at the right time–just as they lost a loved one or struggled with the recent loss of a loved one.  They believed that my story of the other side was part of their healing journey.

Accept the Love of Others:  Most people readily accept ecstatic joy in the eyes of an infant or toddler, a tiny being enthralled with the colors and wonders of this world.  Why, then, can’t we accept ecstatic joy from people of all ages and nationalities?  We are all travelers going in the same direction—eventually home.

Why not let your light shine right now?  Why not love the light you see in others whether they are at the beginning, middle, or end of their journey.  Why not love without censorship or discrimination?  Why not love?  Most of all, why not love yourself with a love than never ends?  Why not be healed?  Why not serve others in the best ways that you can?