I was at a satori this evening led by Dr. Jan Holden who spoke about her extensive research on NDEs. I know Jan, and she uses part of my story in her presentation. I felt blessed to connect with the lovely people there. It was beautiful to see how Dr. Holden ties together the experiences of children and various adults together in her talk. One little girl she mentioned talked about how she had to fight negative forces in order to come back into her body during her NDE. When the researcher asked her how she fought these forces she said simply and poignantly, “With my heart.” The wisdom of children is astonishing. As forgetful adults, we have so much to learn from them about love.
Negative and Positive NDEs: The majority of research about NDEs comes from the Western perspective, and largely the focus has been on positive, pleasant NDEs. I read Dr. Holden’s book, but hearing her reiterate a few major points brought certain messages home for me. Dr. Holden discussed how some negative NDEs become positive experiences after the soul stops fighting the experience and continues down the tunnel towards the light. The idea of reluctant souls fighting the dying process and creating their own hell reminded me of how people create their own hells by fighting change here on earth. They cling to the darkness instead of moving toward the light.
Darkness represents all that they know, and they fear they will no longer be themselves if they embrace change and become one with that change. Change is freeing though. It is like breathing after holding your breath and fighting for so long. Change is an ocean I will always dive into, and feel the gentle waves and the large waves crash over my body. Can a person be too free? I don’t think so.
Dallas Shooting: Tonight as I think about struggle and the pain people create, I cannot help thinking about the tragedy in Dallas which is just down the road from me. My hope for Dallas is that stronger, diverse communities focused healing will be strengthened and created here. What everyone needs is understanding and the ability to empathize with one another. The more safe places there are in this world for people to grieve and understand many different perspectives, the safer this world becomes. At Barnes and Nobles this afternoon, a wise man said to me, “The majority of police men and women are very good people. The majority of PEOPLE of all races and nationalities in this country and in other countries are very good people. Let us not forget this fact.”
Much Goodness: I am certain that the majority of people I interact with are good and kind. However, the news does not focus on the healers, the activists, the social workers, the teachers, the ministers, the nurses, and the millions of others who live their lives to help others and help this world. These people exist, but we do not see their stories broadcast across their airwaves. They exist and you know they do.
I want to turn my focus to a solution that brings people together to send so much love and understanding into this world that injustice against any living being is impossible. This is my goal for our planet. I know that so much love and beauty is around us at all times in the hearts and minds of others. Reach out with the intention to heal this world, and you will find goodness all around you.
Be the Divine: At the end of my NDE, I was told to come back to the earth and work as a teacher. I have known for a while that teaching in a traditional format will not be the only type of teaching I will do in my lifetime. The study of literature naturally opens up topics that allow me to discuss my near death experience, and for years, I have reminded students to be the light of the world as they journey from my classroom. I love my job, but I feel a change entering my life, and I will not fight it. I’m smiling at it, and bekoning it closer.
I hope to remind more people than the many students who have flowed through my classrooms of their light, power, and purpose. The darkness, engrained patterns, and anger will struggle against the light, but only for a while. Like the forgetful souls who struggle against the dying process only to remember that they are going home, going deep into the embrace of the most blissful, loving force they can imagine, we are on the verge of a great societal change. Struggle is a form of hell. Embrace change. Become a great force of love and light. I have the power to heal, and so do you.
Go to the Light: When I think of those forgetful souls struggling against the dying process and creating hell for themselves, I have to thank Saturday Night Live for this brilliantly funny skit about a negative NDE. Don’t struggle people. You will only make it harder for yourselves. Go to the light! And, sometimes, humor is the light.